What I Want

I don't want to be a number. I don't want to be a statistic. I don't want to live life on neutral. I don't want to fall between the cracks. I don't want to be simple. I don't want to be complicated. I don't want to disappoint. I don't want to conform. I don't want to become a stereotype.

I want to live life to the fullest. I want to be happy. I want to achieve. I want to excel. I want to be remembered. I want to be grand. I want to break chains. I want to make change. I want to improve.

I WANT TO BE ME!

These are my thoughts, these are my emotions, these are my words. I have striven to be better and learn from mistakes. I have goals to reach and a list to complete. I am not your average bear; I'm unique, random, different, particular, rare, sui generis.

I am me.

My Color

My color is Red; Strong, fiery, emotional, and compassionate. Sounds about right to me. Not only do I think these things of myself, I've been told on several occasions by other people that I demonstrate these qualities. It's interesting however, that before my experience in the initiation into La Regla de Ocha, I considered my color to be Blue. I saw myself as shy, calm, collect, and ever so deep like the ocean. I still do consider myself to have these traits, but I guess I'm growing and coming into my own so to say, so both colors fit me well. At different times, days, and places, I'm simply different shades. My own personal Ying & Yang. The fiery/passionate Red next to the calming/deep Blue. Perhaps this can be my next tattoo...um...

**This was originally something I wrote for an English class assignment, but I felt it covered my character/persona so well that I wanted to post it. This pretty much sums up the very basic essence of what Russo is...

Update

Exactly what this will be; an update. The update you have all been waiting for (hope you enjoy the post ANT). While I have taken a leave of absence from the web scene, my mind has not stopped racing; many great thoughts and stories spinning around. Lucky enough I'm taking a fiction writing course this semester which is definitely going to be a blast! Speaking of school, it's going great and it's also the reason I kind of stepped back from my writing; I needed to dedicate as much time as possible to my classes last semester. Now I feel I can balance everything out evenly and should be able to regularly update my blog like old times. While I shall return to the blogging world, you will notice some differences. My posts will probably be longer and more meaningful, but I hope this will be to your liking. If there is anything you feel should be seen more, let me know; anything you think I should leave out, let me know. I welcome all comments as I always have.

Moving on, my life feels as though it is finally on track. I have clear cut goals and dates set. While most dates are tentative (I'm also being a realist here), I'm doing all I can to make sure I meet those already written down. I'm feeling good about school, life, and home. Although things could ALWAYS be better, I'm trying to focus more on the positive things and barrel forward on in life. There's little time to waste and any time I'm not moving forward, I'm doing just that; wasting it.

So that's the short story of it all. School's good, getting better as the semesters continue unfolding and Life is definitely moving along at a comfortable speed. I could complain, but why bother? I'll just continue making my own changes; a method I've come to enjoy and like.

It's my life: I'm taking control.